This is one of those moments when I can barely keep my eyes open. Im literally struggling to stay awake. My eyelids weigh at least ten pounds. Yet, my mind never stops. It’s the single most frustrating thing I experience on a daily basis, shit, a minute by minute basis! It never stops. No moments of peace and quiet. Silence merely brings on the flood of stories, song lyrics I didn’t even know I knew, what if’s, what if not’s, what needs too be done, what’s already been done, what’s for dinner, what needs to be cleaned, are there enough groceries, did something get left in the car, I need to vacuum, watch my shows, read my book, catch up with the kids, check the calendar, take my meds, kids take their meds, want to spend time with my husband, do I have clean underwear, I need to switch the laundry, it’s too late to make noise, can’t function in silence too many thoughts get in, do other people do this, am I crazy, do I needed more pills, less pills, I hate pills, air conditioner is annoying, the dishes are not put away, my legs are killing me, worry about someone close to me, can’t ignore alarm in the morning cause I need to do my hair and make my lunch, are the animals fed, I think I’m forgetting something, do the kids think I’m ignoring them, do I have enough one on one time with them, with my husband, I need a nap, I need to stop looking at the clock, what am I going to make for dinner tomorrow, I need a tan and feel the sun on my skin, need to lose twenty pounds like yesterday, clothes don’t fit, do the kids need clothes or shoes, need to pay the bills, hope there is enough money to pay the bills, there never seems to be enough, I need to make more money, I need a vacation, where would I go, what would that cost, would everyone like to go to the same place……..is there ever going to be just five seconds where I can shut it all off and get some peace and quiet?!
